Family
Sorry for the very long silence,i'm on anti-social mode for an unknown duration. I cn't believe i cn actually live w/out looking at my mobile for days..i'm still breathing, til now at least..n it surprises me how i cn't b bothered by it.
I dunno wuts wrong with me, i missed SSP's bowling tournament for Alumni purposely,i hv'nt ring any friend yet, and i hv'nt go out with them. I hope they cn understand how sumtimes all we need is to be with our fmly. Dun get me wrong, i do value friendship a whole lot,just gv me a few more days n i'll appear online and switch my phone on again.
The other part of the holiday is abt spending time with family.In terms of quality and quantity.I've had my shopping part of the holiday,i've had my hanging out with friends part, i've had my non-stop dating part n i guess i need this one third of the holiday to sit at home, fetch da school kids, feed the rabbit, do house chores to recharge myself again.I call it holiday still.
Today mama and ayah met with an accident.This is very recent. I'm fortunate that i was in KL when it happened bcoz i am 100% sure that my parents won't tell me if i was in sydney.u see, these things worries me.Alhamdulillah, they're fine.Not even a tiny scratch. The Accord is not, but it's okay, the insurance cn cover that up.
In life,there r other things more important than our studies. The health and safety of our parents, our siblings, our grandparents, our big family.. I miss sekolah rendah, n i remembered how sha malas bwk beg skolah. Abg n i wud tease her for being daddy's girl.I miss balik kampung together jugak, all da seven of us in the carnival n we fell asleep on each other's shoulder.It was'nt 'sweet' then as it seemed now,coz abg wud definitely tolak my head if tersandar at his shoulder.Then ayah stop dkt R n R, n we had lunch dgn muka bgn tidur..haha..those days, we hv no one to impress. Now that we're older,ayah sold the carnival n we balik kampung in separate cars, the boys at abang's n the girls at ayah's.U see, when we're younger, being with our parents was as natural as breathing.Then we grew up, we went to boarding schools n we cn only see them once a week (in my case twice), then we grew older, we move out of the country n we cn only see them 3 times a year (maximum)..before we cud realize, our younger sister became taller than us, our
baby brother's voice changed,and the baby rabbit cn't be differentiate
from the mother.Some friends i know even missed their brother's wedding.i cn't imagine one day, the time will come when we'll hv a family of our
own n the family we're in now will be second. I cn't imagine one day,we'll
be seeing our siblings only over a meal,a weekend, a graduation,a function,n
during festivals. It's not gonna be as natural as now..it's gonna be sad,but in da future we'll think of it as 'life'.
..and as i'm typing this, ayah passed by the place i sit and say, 'tak tidur lagi kak?', n u know wut,i'm gonna miss dis one day.
